i have borderline personality disorder, and in the past ive had problems with inner rage and losing control of it. this has caused me to be atacked by street hoodlams, many times. in 97 i got my head smashed open, with a wooden chair leg, by 3 hooded youths. many years latler, amoungst other things, i still struggle with inner rage, and losing control of impulse. stay ive socially isolated myself, and are scared of goin out. i only go out when i have to. i feel lonely, isolated and miserable. i have no friends to turn to. male or female. im waiting for therapy. im scared when i go out, what if it happens again? how would i deal with it? i have overwhelmin anxiety and the fear controls my life….im wonderin how i can overcome this?
We all have all the resources we need to do whatever we want, it's just a matter of using them. Whenever something happens and your unconscious mind cannot rationalise it. it starts a pile. The next time something happens it goes on top and so on, till all these unresolved emotions become where you are.
Start with challenging some of your presuppositions-
What is a borderline personality disorder and why did you DECIDE to believe it's true?
Who says you struggle to control inner rage and why do you choose to BELIEVE it?
Why do you CHOOSE to believe that anxiety and fear rule your life
We are all incredible - you are incredible. This may sound wierd but if you brain surf and ask your unconscious mind what the positive benefit of all these feelings are, and find your own true answer - there is one because for EVERY behaviour there is a positive intention, you won't need conventional therapy and life will be good.
No matter what happens you must look for the positive intention or benefit in EVERYTHING and once you get used to thinking like that the glass will always be more than half full
Enjoy the journey and don't look back